Happiness has really been hard to find in the past few years. Depression, health, family issues, loss…a lot of pits very difficult from which to escape. This election provided me with a dopamine powered staircase and I simply walked out of my smog for that short period of time.
I felt creative, needed, worthwhile, proud…so many things which have been far from my grasp for a long time. I made friends, developed relationships, made contacts and even joined the Democratic Party. I’ve met celebrities, personalities, leaders. I have seen the President and the First Lady. I have learned priceless lessons and gained much education.
I have gone to rallies, protests, fundraisers, parties, debates and even the State Convention.
I have stepped out of my box – like WAY out. My heart issues disappeared. My anxiety was almost non-existent. I had more energy – something foreign to me. I lost weight even though I wasn’t exercising.
I was happy.
I have been having withdraw on a gradual basis for months now. And I am determined to find a new staircase…hopefully a more permanent one. It’s not that my family isn’t enough. It’s not that my life is intolerable. Not at all. But I guess I just need more. Otherwise I cannot help but feel as though I was fading – no, wasting – away. I think I can be a much better mom if I find the real me and my real path.
Anyway – these past two years have indeed been life changing and awe-inspiring. So much for which to be grateful under such odd and unfortunate circumstances. I just had to make the following slideshow to illustrate how I have perceived the past two years as a way to thank those who have made this time so extraordinary.
Racine, Wisconsin was monumental in creating change by working with grassroots efforts, the Democratic Party and a bunch of bad-ass progressives who will never give up. This video is a small glimpse into the hard work, friendship and passion which we have enjoyed for the past two years