Many of us have thought about the various ways Covid will affect our future - how we do things, how we perceive things, how we plan, how we protect. There are very few facets of life that will not, in some way and to some degree, be altered by this pandemic. One thing that seems…
In the Midst of a Pandemic, the Flowers Still Bloom
Nature doesn't care if people are dying, if families are grieving, if greed is prevailing. The flowers continue to permeate their sweet scent and the birds persist with their musical conversations. The temperatures are warming and the buds are growing into leaves. Spring is here to remind us that life, for some, does go on…
Fearing Death in the Midst of a Pandemic
One year ago today on Seagrove Beach in Florida. We were supposed to leave for Florida today. I hope with all of my heart that my feel will once again feel the ocean waves. I have written a lot about my anxiety disorder and, even more specifically, my fear of death. Never have I thought…
Coping in the Time of Covid
I recently asked friends on Facebook how they are handling this new existence that has been thrust upon us. Initially, it was out of curiosity but, let's face it, I was looking for ideas. The answers pretty much filled the spectrum from "Not well" to "Going with the flow". Of course, I was envious of…
Birthday Cake in the Apocalypse
2020 was designated (by only myself, but still) to be The Year of Heather. 2019 was rough and many changes were made. Two surgeries (elective but with the intent to improve my health and quality of life) one of which required a long, shitty recovery, lost a job, started a new job, remodeled a kitchen,…
Anxiety, Meet Fear
When you live most of your life somewhere on the spectrum of anxiety disorder, your perception can get a little goofy. You're somewhat used to the fight flight response because your broken brain sets it off in any given moment often for no reason at all. A response that is built into our human psyche…
Viral Selfishness
I have thought for quite some time now that selfishness in one form or another will be society's ultimate downfall. Daily, we see how greed affects the masses. We witness selfishness during election season. And social media shows us a minute to minute demonstration of how ugly human character can really become. We live in…
2020 Vision (super original, I know)
I have declared 2020 'The Year of Heather'. I am willing it to be so. It must be so. It will be so fucking so. This year, I will turn 46. My father died when he was 46 and I have been afraid of that number since I was 23 (23 years ago). This is…
Jillian Vs. The Keto Cult
This blog post will likely have some people rolling their eyes at me. But, guess what?! I am super used to it - so bring it. Jillian Michaels from The Biggest Loser fame has come under fire for discouraging people from practicing the Keto Diet. People are seriously losing their shit. You can read about…
When Courage Meets Happiness
"You need to find the courage to be happy." I recently heard this quote, although I am not sure where. It really slapped me right in the face. It made sense to me and I don't think it would have before this point in my life. What has changed? I actually am happy. Yikes. Even…