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LCHF: Worth a Try…We Shall See…



I have written about my weight before. Some may even think I talk about it too much. Or, at least, worry about it too much. I suppose I would agree. I certainly don’t want my daughter to be as concerned with her body image as I have been with mine. I get to the point of beating myself up mentally whenever I look in the mirror. I cry. I yell. I throw my clothes on the ground and refuse to leave the house (this isn’t a regular thing, but it has happened). I would never want Cassidy to feel this way – so why do I do it to myself? It has been ingrained in my head since childhood that how we look is the basis of our value. Cognitively, I know that is crap…but my subconscious sees my fat or cellulite or signs of aging as unworthiness. It truly is fucked up. And telling me “stop feeling that way” is about as productive as telling a depressed person to “cheer up”. Believe me, if I could – I would.

So, a little background…When I was pregnant 11 years ago, I gained 70+ pounds. Shortly before becoming pregnant, I went on a beta blocker for my heart – so that didn’t help. After having her – using a multiple of dieting methods – I was able to lose some but a big chunk wouldn’t budge. I honestly tried everything. Finally, I went off of a medication (cymbalta) and the rest fell off with sensible eating. I lost over 30 pounds in less than 3 months. And I kept it off for a number of years.

In 2014, my medical issues got worse, I had surgery and then post op complications (the whole antibiotic thing I wrote about a few months ago) – I gained about 30 in a fairly short block of time. And with my liver injury – my body has been holding onto fat for dear life. Again, it just wouldn’t budge. Over the last year, I have VERY slowly been able to lose about 13 pounds. But that stalled a few months ago and no matter what, the rest just won’t leave.

So, I have decided to try the LCHF (basically, Atkins) diet to get things progressing. I do not know if this will work. I do know that I have never really tried this before. I want to lose 15 lbs but would be happy with 10. It isn’t like I have a shit load to lose. So, I realize my results won’t be like those who lose 10 pounds in one week. And there ARE a lot of people like that.

But I want to make this clear – I will never be a militant dieter. I am of the mindset that life is so very short and I plan on enjoying as much of it as I can until I can’t. And, yes, that includes cake. I enjoy food. I am not addicted. I am not obsessed. I enjoy it. It is a great pleasure in life and I will never be one of those people who simply use it as fuel. That just isn’t me. During those years when I kept the weight off – I basically ate healthy, fairly low carb most of the week. On weekends and vacations, I allowed myself to splurge. I am happy with that way of eating.

So far on the LCHF (2.5 days) – I have lost 2 lbs. And I can even see the difference already. We shall see where this goes as it is certainly worth a try. The food is most definitely limited – but also very filling. I am trying to keep my net carbs (carbs minus fiber) under 25 grams per day. This isn’t easy, but so far has been do-able. But if I have a piece of cake at a party or some corn at a fair – I am not going to torture myself as though I am some kind of failure. Because, really, what I want more than anything is to be okay with what I am and how I look in each moment. I am 41. I will never look 20 again. And it simply is not fair to myself to expect that and punish myself because I don’t.

If anyone is interested in learning about LCHF…I will put a couple of videos below. There is also a lot of info HEREBut, again, I am not pushing this diet…not even recommending it yet. I think the science is very interesting and I have seen a shit load of success stories and I am trying it. That’s all. At this point anyway 😉


Indulging Comes to an End


You have heard of Fat Tuesday, right? This week I am celebrating the innovative new holiday known (to me) as Fat Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday…yea. Not YEA like hooray. I mean yea like…sigh. So, there is no fooling myself that these past months I have not in anyway been vigilant about my eating. I have kept up with the exercise, but I have been eating much worse much more often than I should. And the results of my neglect are now showing…at a theater near you. Seriously, the pants are a little snug, I look super bloated in pictures and its just not a pretty sight all around – and a do mean a ROUND.

The “plan” was to start my new, healthy weight loss lifestyle today. Nothing major or weird. Just back to what I did at this time last year when I lost 30 pounds. Healthy food 90% of the time, 1100-1400 calories a day, log every bite and continue with the exercise (and use a new Wii program in addition) – that’s the “plan”. I also want to incorporate 3 other rules which I didn’t commit to last time.

  • Better Sleep — I will make an effort to be asleep by 11pm — TV off (it often gets left on through the night, impairing my sleep)


  • Eat Breakfast!! I will be doing a fruit and veggie smoothie each morning and will try to eat small balanced meals throughout the day. Now, I barely eat anything during the day and then chow the fuck down every night. Not cool.


  • No night eating!! I must make a strong effort to eating nothing after 9pm. I don’t care if I have to take a sleeping pill. I need to stop this night eating habit.


So, this is the “plan”. It was supposed to start today. It didn’t.

We have all these snacks from vacation left over, easter candy galore, pina colada mix which needs to be used, tons of left over ham – food that I need OUT of the house before I start this diet. I have no self control and I simply cannot allow these triggers to be left in the home. Don’t shed tears for the kids and husband. They get plenty. I simply buy them snacks they like that I do not. That way I am not tempted.

While on our trip I discovered that Iowa should really be called “Stairway to Fucking Everywhere”. I am not kidding. Everywhere we went there were stairs to be climbed..and not a few steps, I am talking huffing and puffing. Yesterday on the way home we stopped at a few parks and did quite a bit of hiking. I am not a hiker and it wasn’t really the intention. But it was beautiful and worth it (HERE are pics) but HOLY HELL!! Even with all the exercise I do..I cannot believe how sore my legs are. I can barely walk!! My calves are so tight and crampy and burning. Now, I did also use the weight machine at the hotel and did A LOT that I usually don’t do (no access to equipment) and I wore heels Saturday night which I also do not do very often. So I am sure it all played a part in the reason there is NO WAY I could exercise today. Owwwwiiieeee!!! Regardless of the discomfort – I will be back on the dreadmill tomorrow. If I miss more than a day, I feel horrible about myself.

These are the reasons – not excuses…damnit…REASONS – I could not start the new “plan” today. But I have committed myself to doing this. I need to feel better – physically and emotionally. I will lose these last 10 lbs by July. I will look good for that damn reunion. I will feel better about wearing a swimsuit this summer.

As I said, part of getting back into the healthier lifestyle I will be incorporating smoothies. At least for the first couple weeks. The idea is to have a veggie & fruit smoothie for breakfast and one for lunch. A big salad and healthy dinner in the evening. The morning smoothie will also have protein (whey powder) and both will have chia seeds. I have ordered both the powder and seeds and they should be arriving on Friday. I have also ordered a new workout program for the Wii called My Fitness Coach.

So, by this weekend the junk food will be gone and my new products will arrive. I will take this week to start getting into the swing of things and by Monday the “plan” goes into full effect. I am nervous. It is like when you watch Intervention and the addicts refuse to go to rehab even though you are sitting there screaming at your TV because you know how much better their lives could be…but they are just so scared to give it up…to committ…to fail. Yea, its like that. I am out loud holding myself accountable. So failing would be quite a heavy burden. And very depressing. So, it is kinda scary. I mean, I LOVE my food, my sugar, my salt. I love going out to eat. But I know I will love feeling good about myself even more.

But I know I can do this. It was only one year ago that I lost 30 pounds, many inches AND quit smoking. If I could do that…this should be a walk in Hershey Park, right?? Cross your taste buds for me…

Do They REALLY Need to Drink Soda All Night??

American soda

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My step daughter’s Girl Scout troop is having a lock in tonight. In the memo they asked for parents to bring “soda” (2 liters, to share with everyone). Only soda was mentioned as a beverage option. I know I seem like such an asshole about this…but WHY? For what purpose must you allow these kids (kindergarten – 5th grade) drink soda all night long? Kids these ages have little to no self control. EVERY intelligent person in this country knows by now that soda is horrible for people – let alone kids. Caffeine, sugar, chemicals…it can and is actually dangerous to many. So wouldn’t you think that an organization like The Girl Scouts would make healthier choices for the kids during such events?? I mean…it didn’t even MENTION juice or water. They are already going to be eating pizza and chips and lord knows what else…which whatever, I understand it is a special occasion…but come on. At least there is SOME nutritional value in pizza. At least it provides SOME kind of sustenance. But soda – none.

To me, when thinking of beverage options for kids…never once does soda EVER pop into my head. Yea, they may have a diet caffeine free 7up to split here and there – but that is rare. Milk, water, juice, lemonade, crystal light….that’s about it. Why would you ever choose soda when at these ages we still have some sort of control over this. In a few years, we won’t and we have to hope for the best. But now, while in our homes…why not make the healthier choice?

I just know my step daughter is going to come home sick tomorrow. And we have plans in the morning and if they are ruined because she is sick from eatin’ shit and drinkin’ soda all night long I WILL be pissed.

America’s Healthiest Schools…Can Racine Live Up to the Challenge?

Today's public school lunch

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Last night I read an article in Health Magazine which I found pretty interesting as well as encouraging. It was entitled America’s Healthiest Schools 2010.

There are school around the US which are making some really innovative and positive changes to combat the childhood obesity epidemic. According to the article, 1 out of 3 kids are obese or overweight. Now, that is one sad and dangerous statistic. Especially since it doesn’t have to happen to begin with and it IS curable.

I will let you read the article for the details. But I have to mention some of the ideas I do wish out schools would adopt.

In Sublette, Kansas, Sublette Elementary School is now having recess BEFORE lunch so that children are not rushing though their lunch to get outside. Not only will this allow for a better eating environment where children can eat relaxed making digestion easier and not only will they not be tempted to throw the healthier food away in order to hurry up…but also running around prior to eating will turn the food into energy instead of fat more so than if it were the other way around.

In Wilsonville, Alabama, farmers bring in fresh locally grown produce for school lunches. Also, the staff holds informations groups for parents on healthy eating, recipes, physical activities, etc. After all, it all starts and ends at HOME.

Springwoods Elementary in Woodbridge, VA has an interesting program of which I have never heard. They follow the “95210” program. 9 hours of sleep each night (so many people ignore the importance of sleep, especially with all the extracurricular activities and increase in homework). 5 servings of veggies and fruits (hopefully the stress that it should not be 5 servings of only fruit but veggies have to be included). No more the 2 hours of screen time a day – computer or TV.  At least 1 hour of daily exercise. And 0 sugar drinks per day. I love it!!!

These ideas are so great and I really hope they become contagious throughout the country.

Last year there was a program with Jamie Oliver about healthy eating in America, Jamie Oliver’s Food Revolution.

Vodpod videos no longer available.

It was a short mini series type of television show…but the movement continues and I hope we can see him visit another American city very soon. Here is a clip from last season when he visited Huntington, West Virginia:

Bringing it home…

A year or two ago I was up in arms when I found out half way into the school year that my 8 year old step daughter was taking her allowance to school to buy candy from the daily snack cart. Once I found out what options were on that cart, I was pretty livid. I just did not understand how they could justify selling candy and cookies and chips to kids who are at such a high risk of being dangerously overweight. No, not all…but a THIRD?? That’s enough to worry about, isn’t it?

I wrote a letter to the local paper as well as to the school. I received no response whatsoever. I was contacted by a woman several months later who was organizing a healthy school program. She invited me to participate. because of personal things going on at the time, I was unable…though I do regret that. This group of teachers, parents and concerned citizens gathered and created what is now district wide policy!! I am so proud of these people – strangers or not.

The Wellness Policy has changed a lot when it comes to nutrition in the Racine Unified School District. And I applaud all the changes. Snacks are now to be healthier…no brownies or cupcakes are to be brought in for birthdays or treats (though I have heard it is happening anyway). Snack cart is supposed to only have healthier options (tho fruit and veggies would be even better than popcorn and PB crackers…a lot better!!) and I have noticed that the lunch menus seem much healthier than before. Still processed, frozen crap you get from a Schwann’s truck…but it is better than it was. More veggies and fruits and whole grains. They still have a ways to go to get to the impressive level of the schools mentioned above, however. And we live in farmland!! There is no reason for them not to continue to improve.

Anyway, I have been bitching about this for years and I am so glad that some people are seeing the light and making active steps to do something about it. I do also wish that parents weren’t so resistant to change…especially when it is so clearly for the better. MANY parents have been whining and complaining about the new Wellness Policy. I really do NOT understand that. So your kid wanted cupcakes for their birthday treat…make them at home! There is a birthday nearly every week in a typical classroom…its not all about YOUR kid.