So I am almost med free. Well…perhaps not compared to the average 37 year old…but much better than I was!! At the beginning of this summer I was taking the following:
300 mg of Wellbutrin
300 mg (I think?) of Lamictal
1 mg of Klonopin
Now I am taking:
150 mg Wellbutrin (will be stopping but not sure when…soon…worried about increased appetite)
.5 mg Klonopin EVERY OTHER day
5mg Zyrtec ONLY as needed (was daily…now maybe once a week)
I still take the beta blocker for my heart issues as well as quite a few supplements and vitamins. I am fine with that. I am really quite pleased and haven’t noticed much difference once the withdraw for the Lamictal stopped. I DO feel more tired than usual. And perhaps a little less motivated. But not enough to take more pills. I need to have another talk with Sunday Muniz at Nutritional Designs to make sure I am taking the right vitamins in the right doses. Hopefully that will help with the sleepiness. But, I also realize that I have felt this way (tired) since I was a kid. I slept my way through high school and not the fun kind of “sleeping” either. So I may have to be okay with feeling this way forever.
I don’t think psychiatric medications are bad in general. I think MANY people absolutely need them to function. I think they have helped me as well. 6 years ago, my panic attacks were so debilitating weren’t for the klonopin, I would have had NO life. Jesus they were horrible and much too frequent. That medication saved my life.
But I also think that they over medicate people to the point where no one knows what “normal” feels like anymore. I think mental docs typically take 20 minutes to diagnosed and treat and they are so quick to whip out that Rx pad. And if one med doesnt work? Add another…and perhaps another…and….ugh. No thanks. I got to the point where I didn’t know what was me, the illnesses or the medication effects. What a medicinal cluster-fuck.
I know it is weird to share all this so publically. But I am not the only one out there who deals with this shit, so if even just the familarity can ease one’s mind…it is worth it to me. I know that hearing the stories of others helps me when I am having a hard time. It is often a relief to know that there are others like me and that they have made it through the rougher patches. So there. 😉