Today was one of those ridiculously emotional days. I can’t really talk about much of any of it…so there really isn’t much point to this post. On one of my other posts a friend mentioned that she got over the anger and much of the negative feelings once she shared all that happened to her and then went on to help others using the tools of her experience. There is so much I can’t/don’t talk about – hard to believe, I know. There are some things I won’t be able to talk about until some people are dead. I just don’t want to hurt people…and that is my number one reason I don’t talk about certain things publicly (some, not at all). But perhaps that is why my anger festers.

I don’t know. I don’t have the answers. I sure wish I did. Anyway…so, tonight’s blog will be a list. A list mainly meaningless to most. For my own cathartic (or hopeful) release:

I look forward to not caring about the thoughts others have towards me.

I look forward to feeling no anger.

I look forward to seeing my bad experiences as necessary, educational and strength building.

I look forward to liking myself for how I am right now.

I look forward to not needing the acceptance of others.

I look forward to not being disappointed because my expectations are so high.

I look forward to being more gentle with myself.

I look forward to appreciating my body the way it is right now.

I look forward to having joy in my life.

I look forward to calm.

I look forward to feeling alive, energetic and excited.

I look forward to being as healthy as I can be.

I look forward to living in the now.

I look forward to feeling strong.

I look forward improving my writing.

I look forward to living a long, healthy, happy life.

I look forward to seeing my daughter with her own children.

I look forward to improving my relationship with my stepdaughter.

I look forward to seeing more positive than negative.

I look forward to feeling love and contentment most of the time.

I look forward to looking forward…

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