The REAL Sentence – August 30, 2006
Today I met with my probation agent. It was a complete and utter disappointment and I am too upset to write much. Apparently the sentence the judge gave means nothing. He said he wished they wouldn’t tell people it was up to the agent because probation can never be less than 12 months. He said counseling is also not up to him (even though that is what the judge said). He said that if there is anything on the judgment about counseling I will have to have it. If I need to take anger management classes I will have to go twice a week for two hours each. But we won’t know that for about a month.
What I do know is that I have to go to the probation office twice a month. I have to pee in a cup. He will be making random stops at my home several times a month, any time of day – unannounced. I cannot have one drop of alcohol (don’t really drink anyway, but still…not even a glass of wine with dinner is allowed). I cannot step foot into a bar. I have to pay 60 bucks a month to be on probation. I will not know the rest of the fees (court costs and counseling) until later.
This is so much worse than I was lead to believe. I am so depressed. I am a good person and I KNOW I do not deserve this. I want someone to tell me how to get over this. I really cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel. I really can’t.