My husband’s ex called here tonight and told him that the very first time I emailed her it was to tell her not to talk to him anymore, that she was out of his life or something like that…I was floored. I mean, yes, I should be used to the lying by now. It is clearly to a compulsive level. Needless to say, I did nothing of the sort. In fact, when I moved in with him I endured months of having to sit in the room while he was on the phone with her as I could hear her screaming through the phone. She called me every name in the book. She was very pissed that I had moved in, as if it were any of her business. I took it each and every time. Back then I was very meek and SUPER laid back. Pretty much the opposite as what I am now. When I heard she said that to him tonight I was furious and dead set intent on finding the letter you see below. Sorry for the image, its terrible. But it is the only one I could find. I do not have an electronic version and had to scan a really poor copy. This letter was the first communication I had with her. And sadly enough, I meant every word. I truly HONESTLY tried so hard from day one to make all of this work. I cannot stress that enough. 
It makes me so sad that in reading this letter I see what a different person I have been forced to become. I used to be so kind, compassionate, laid back…now, I am bitter, angry, tense…I am very unhappy about whom I have become. I have allowed the toxicity of others to pollute the soul of who I once was.

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