An 18 Year Old Letter to My Dad

I found this letter while staying at my mom’s house this past week. It was in a box in the basement. I do not remember writing it and not sure if he ever even saw it…probably not. I was 18 – just a couple weeks shy of graduation. I was probably pissed he wasn’t coming. He never came to anything so not sure why I was surprised. I often wonder if my step daughter will ever see her mother for what she really is…see the truth in everything. I hope it doesn’t take 8 more years for her to realize I am not the bad guy and am the one who has genuinely taken care of her during her childhood.
I do want to say that I mentioned some mean things about my stepmom in this letter. I was lashing out. I was very angry with her for, in essence, being his accomplice in abandoning us. I have spoken with her since my father’s death and we exchange cards. She is not at all the evil person I thought she was in my adolescent angst.
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About Heather Rayne

I am a mom, wife, writer, volunteer, eater of food, lover of animals and avid TV enthusiast. I am opinionated, honest, compassionate and sensitive. I can also be difficult, hard headed and emotional. I consider myself to have a great sense of humor and am very attracted to that in others. I am striving to live an authentic life. I am attempting to learn how to find happiness in the now. I always have hope to be a better person. That being said - I can be vulgar, negative and even a little bitchy at times. I say what I mean and my filter is often dysfunctional. With me, what you see is what you get. I have strong opinions and am quick to speak my mind. This can cause problems from time to time but I do not ever intend to hurt or offend anyone. With that - be warned. I do hope you enjoy my site. Thanks for visiting and have a swell day.

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